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i find out that i found some treasure…a treasure that i like best….and i have put my effort to care it, nurture it, to polish it, but then when the treasure is not mine is still would not be mine. It will belongs to someone else…Hence, i just let the treasure find its own owner…

lately, i found someone really very talented, very caring, and nice guy….i need to thank him to for showing me new experience..yes he is my chu lien….but then i feel i’m suffocated cuz its distance…and then i dont know is it i’m too much relying on emotions…but i do know i give my best shot to secure the relationship..but i dont know the results yet…..if its God’s allowing then let it blossom and be fruitful in God’s sight….if its not then, thank God also cuz its God showing me new experience in life and new exposure of what love is all about….with that i put my full trust in the Lord…Let him provide…let the  treasure finds its owner…..

well, a brand new sem, a brand new start, a brand new headup, a brand new gear, a brand new challenge…..nevertheless i dont feel new inside me….In fact i’m in the agony of silence, I’m feeling lonely almost everyday ever since my bro went back from kk for his short vacation in kk.Its been 2 week already whr i’m so not use to it…

I miss my ex roomate a lot, my old friends, and i really dont know how 2 express the deepest and lonesome. All this while i’m use 2 have friends around me…now that in this semester for my Master degree….none of my frens studied 2gether with me….I would very much advice that if studying Master, might as well have a partner so that it wont feel so lonely….

However, in class i’m feeling quite fine with the aunties….but not in the daytime and noon time….It feels sucks…I can even feel the breeze of the thin air, the quietness, the frozen air.I eat alone, I wake up alone, I do asgmts alone, I gasp alone, i cry alone, I whispe alone, I watch drama alone, no more KFC frens, nomore kaki shopping, i talk 2 God and my guardian angel more…but still the emptyness is thr…..i wish to have more friends..a new friends which i can count on…my ex roomate-Cynthis her name, is a enormous and rocking friends i have in life….Its gona be a departure soon, when she get posted as teacher, its hard for us 2 meet again….perhaps a vacation trip 2gether if i could make it….

If anyone happens 2 read this blog, pls lend me a hand….i’m in need of someone who can talk to me, share with me bout experiences….just anything…dear God, pls also provide me with miracles…I hope I can find the person u’ve appointed for me as life partner….perhaps its the time now…

welll, i’m now regaining all my strength to be stronger and I cant wait to be home for holidays in december….I miss home desperately…

dear readers, a pleasant day for all of you and many regards in return…I’m hoping for correspond and here’s my msn add: eunice_ysy@hotmail.com

Let there be sunshine after the rain and surprises for me…God bless

This picture metahaphor my views and i really like this picture a lot ….being as expressive as a kid…Naive and happy as can be…Feeling contended and curious, very transparent and vulnerable…

Its 5.17 am…very early indeed.Nor the sun has arose from its bedding….its rare for me to wake up this early….cuz i hardly dozzed of my eyes 2 sleep…

This title eventually came to me in a very delight and makes me wana share more….I came across this tittle while sitting in my fren’s car listening to a morning broadcast related with how expressive are you? If you’re on the peak of a mountain gazing down the beautidul scenery below…what would be ur upmost reaction…thr’s 3 option provided:

A) Wow…  B) Yes…. C) Oooo…

Well, i myself had choosed B …

The relational of it is:

A) U’re 50% expressive…You can to express yourself well in certain situation and curcumstances…u’re in equlibrium state i suppose..hehe

B) U’re 99 % Expressive…the highnes of this %-tage reli surprise me…Meaning to say you can express urself quite well without hiding..it just came naturally to express ur feeling, view, etc..   

C) U’re 20% expressive..Very Reserved and hard to figure out what actually u’re thinking….Sounds complicated..though…

so, what group are you in?

Well, i’m in B-the 99 % expressiveness and i think it speaks out my characters…i’m easy to be seen and i express myself very well in a smaller crowd(2-3ppl)…contrastly,if its in big crowd…i’ll tend to be quite Quiet as i try to formalize myself….the expressiveness being swallowed down the throat..haha

but when it comes to just to a small group of people…i can express my view, my feelings and tends to be quite straight forward and easily fall in love….for me..i think i’m transparent and i speak out but i need to tolerate certain circumstances and the scenarios so not to hurt others feeling…

being expreessive its good as normally we rarely hear any praises and compliments…does giving genuine compliments and simple praise gona hurt your pride? be more generous and the effects is actually amazing even without you urself realizing it..for me, in many relationships its will give us more sense of security and stability and the assurance gives us the light to love, to care and to smile…

well, i left u to judge….is it a good thing to be expressive?

till then…Lots of love and a very pleasant day to all…God bless

Its the 1st day of CNY and its the beginning of mice year…finally can totally ‘habis pusing’ the twisted tail of pig…haha…No offence, its a new beginning, new venture, new sail, new hope, new missions yet to complete, and ehem..ehem…found the accurate guy…

New day of Mice year…without realizing its the 2nd cycle…probably i’m aging too…but,i rather be my own self…i lost myself few years back and now i’m sure that i found myself back….Thank God for all his providence and nturing love…indeed, everything grow well with LOVE..Love is not a complicated things..its actually very simple but its often we ourself see it too sophitiscated…agree??

i’m not a profesional in gf/bf relationship, though at times i’m anticipating to find the potential candidates…well, i learn something from my church camp…which is to see every person as a PERSON not as potential candidates…and i venture on   with this view till today…i find many wonderful things in people around us..so, for the time being, i’ll just let God surprise me someday with the right & real person..at the same time, i too need to prepare myself to preserve the best for him…

hmm….its almost 6 pm liao…this year i’m really lazy to go out visiting…stay at home watching my DVD..hehe…till then for this small sharings…dear readers,fetch in the comments ya..with that i leave all of you with many love and GONG XI FA CAI…

warm regards,

eun

i’m setting into a new journey into pursuing my Master degree in my previous university…friends and family, thank you for your supports to bring me this far….remember me in your prayers and together we hope for the best for one another..

regards,

eunice

a trigger underneath my heart….i actually fell in love with music very deeply but it is left unattended ever since i move to Miri..this feeling  came across after watching ‘High school Musical’..frankily,i easily tap my feet whenever thr’s music and i could just fell in love with music but not the too rocky type…..i was once church choir…but after i move to Miri, hardly join any choir…sigh…if i had a chance i reli reli love to join church choir again…i reli like the singing of choir in cammelite, plus the st. josepph catheral in kk…to bad i dont have the guts and time to join…

Talking bout music is just so fun…wow…tremendous…i eventually pick up some guitar playing by myself..but some chord is just too hard…mayb i need a profession teacher in future..in the other hand, my piano a bit down…ermm….hope it wont hurt ur ears…haha…

whenever i hear nice songs, i easily feels like singing and then move swifly my leg especially …but sometimes my naughty bro will ‘ejek’ my voice..haha….i think if i have some1 to guide me through, that will be so nice…that’s why i’m very hoping my other half can be a guitarist or someone fill with musical cells…that will be too good….but, i havent found him…wishing he could appear…imagine when both can sing and indulge in music…OMG!!that is realy one of my dream yet to be fullfilled…that’s why…i’m still waiting for the correct guy to appear….mayb not in my time…but in God’ time…

i think i’ll stop right here..all music lovers out there…nice music/ nice tune is just so nice and remarkable in my life…it makes things so wonderful…thank God…and may our Good Lord splendour his Blessing and His magnificent Love to all…

lots of regards and love,

eunice

3 years hanging around 2gether….evey moments of togetherness i’ll bring it all back and wrapped it with my greatest love and joy…3 years..3 years…this time frame is neither short nor too long…but lots great awakening tragedies & events i’ve been through all this while…..undeniable there’s some event makes me feeling like flying in the sky..no offence, i cry like a baby at times …hehehe..i can laugh till cry too….suprisingly, if my laughing gas explode, its hard 2 stop…it eventually followed by tears of joy..

i’ll be leaving Sabah this tues( 17/7/2007) 1.15pm flight…then, its time 2 bid farewell 2 my frens here..i miss  my rented house at 32 lorong raja udang 18,the people who lives in it, espescially my roomies..

this week was a buzy crazy outing week…i go eat hard, play hard,  shopping hard, crazying hard,haha…hehe..pampering myself for the last time b4 leaving this land below the wind…..i went to eat almost all the fast food….burger king & kenny roger which no longer available in Miri..oh ya, went to Mc D Drive Through as well….

going up kundasang, the wildlife park at LOKAWI, the islands, starbucks, movies,steamboat,asmosphere….left 1 more place, K box…but now suara macam katak…hardly can sing..haha…play too hard liao sampai hilang suara…paiseh..paiseh…

my head start 2 dizzy…..stop right here today…i’ve lots to share…till we meet again

the sorrounding i face all these while during practical is really so much of uncertaintity…i think my Uni really burdening us…honestly,i’ve never like my Uni till today.perhaps its all because of the elimination beneath the heart deep deep down inside since my 1st year..

well, my practical days is kinda troubling and giving me nightmares sometimes facing with a perverted supervisor..but so far so good, i can still manage to protect myself well…i’m very very hoping for the rest of my 1 month can simply pass as soon as possible..i cant wait for 29 JUNE to come..its my day of freedom….times is really ticking so slow all these while…but i know i shall have my independance day out from that company soon..after i’ve completed my stupid Uni’s obligation….i’m out of it like a free bird…soaring high for my freedom n never shall i go back there..

now all i need is patience and suport from friends and family to complete all these obstacles..and i know they always jouney side by side with me spiritually..but i’m thankful to my guardian angels too who has been very protecting and understanding friend of mine…thank God for sending them to me..they’re really so miraculous and enlightening me in their own way…have u feel their excistance? i’m here to witness that they reli hear us and guiding us.

yeah..i’ve bought my air ticket back to my hometown..i’ll be back home on the 17 July 2007….yahoo!!! so happy knowing that i’ll be home soon but heavy heartedly i’ll need 2 left my best buddy and all my good friends here…as times ventures, every depart will have a meetings again in futures….i’ll looking 4ward for that day to come..perhaps a reunion in future…i’ve always have an idea of next time if our next generation will oso  become great pal like we ever did b4..haha…hmm..i think my journal 2day seems to be kinda mudane..u think so?

mayb its because i’m kinda demotivated and sick at the moment…i’ll gain my health back soon i guess…i wana be the jolly me and solemly looking for everlasting happiness. haha..lol…

and to my cup of tea where/who ever u maybe,i’ll always be waiting and i believe there’s someone almighty i trust that will arrange the special meeting between you and me  sooner or later..

friends out there, i’m wishing you all the best and never hesitate to sends in your comments…good day and God bless

the candle blowing day!!i never tot of going through so happily this year….its a day i’ll never forget in my life…simple regard means a lot too me…thanks 2 all my frens…i’ve never imagine i’ll receive so much bday regards this year…

apparently, my housemates n hei kiaw really rocks!!(but buddy cynthia in miri pula..if not must be more bising n merrier the suasana..)eventhough busy with practical, i really see the effort from them making my day so special!!thanks 2 the wonderful meal, the cheese blueberry cake (i’m loving it damn a lot), the cocktail with special name(picanocata…sound something like tat but not reli accurate)hehehe..

guess wat they put as my cake wording ..reli knocks me off laughing with their writen words ‘ GAMBATEH YEK YEK’…ermm..yek yek??u all think 2 much liao la…i’ve nobody in mind yet so far..nevertheless, i’m still anticipating 4 the rite person 2 appear!!

its my 1st time 4 my lifetime celebrating it away from home…hehe, mayb some of u will say OMG, 1st time ah celebrate away from home??23 year old liao oh…well, for me nothing 2 regret and yes it is indeed 1st time and i’m really happy. the joy is there n i sincerly wana spread my bday blessing 2 all!!and 2 my parents n bro, thanks for the regards…u guys are reli AWESOME peoples!!

frens and cousins afar, terima kasut!! (kasih)haha….glad 4 receiving all of ur regards from afar!!u all making me so memorable..and i’m reli feels like hugging u all erat erat….warm hugs 4 u all!!

i really feels love, warmths of friendship from all of you!!!my 23 years old….i shall never forget.

thanks!!!

take care everyone!!

Well,i’m feeling moody today….nobody to share with and dont know who to share with…so,i’ll just blog it all down..i oso duno wat i want..just want a ear who is eager to lend me….therefore,i reli duno what to tittle my blog today…

i came to lots of modification and changes in my 3 years life here in kk…now’s its coming to a end soon…we just had a farewell dinner with my few chinese coursemates….in a glimpse of time, i’m going out to practical soon….yet, i’m still feeling lost indeed in corporate world..needing so much to think bout…i’m still duno whr to settle down….wana move out to new a new housing area is still questionares dancing around my head..then come with transport probs…but i think i can settle it soon i guess…hopefully can settle down in a calm and transquility state..

lately seems to wondering around….wonder bout having a bf perhaps life gona be different…but i x dare to hope more on it…love might be special…but it havent come 2 me yet…just last 2 nite…i suddenly recall of a person i use 2 like a lot….but our love doesnt yield…we’re still frens…not my luck i guess…

hmm….am i a special person in anyone opinion i wonder…so far i think i’m nothing, nobody, and i’m just like a dust or frozen air tat seems to passby without being noticed….is the feeling of being noticed actually great..i admit i’m feeling reli small inside me…nevertheless, i’m owez blur in dealing with my own feelings…in times, i can do counselling 4 others easily but, to face myself its seems compicated and breathless..

nevertheless…i just wana share pieces of my feeling tonite….hope my cheers will come back soon..i believe i can…..thanks 4 anyone who read my blog……take care